time for home.

This trip has made me learn so much but i feel it is time now for me to come home. No, it wasn't the full term that i agreed to but i really think that it is the appropriate time for me to come home.

I have been told that i could work in Paris and Asia and i think i will consider that in the future not now. I am in a new apartment with really nice girls i have met before and it smells better haha so that is a positive. I have also found out that a girl i am friends with wants to be done with modeling after her trip in Milan is over. I think she has some of the same views i do.

If you all could see what it is like at the clubs you would think that some of these people are very unprofessional. Hooking up with three different girls a week and things like that. i find that part repulsive, some of the girls may be really stupid but we are not objects and some of the men don't respect that here. Yeah that happens every where but when you work with someone it is very stupid to be doing such things especially being 10 years older then the models.

I can't wait to bring home all the Baci and Kinder chocolates here, they are so much better than American candy i wish everyone could try some!!!

Crazy spanish girls.

The Spanish girls in my apartment are absolutely nuts, they say i don't take out the trash and i have 3 times in less than a week and they have done it 2 times in three weeks. and the picture I am going to post shows how messy they are: you can see that here.. and this is only the stove. The thing that really gets me is they do this right after I had scrubbed the old stuff from before off which was also from them.

It is really hard living with these people. The two Spanish sisters took the key to the bathroom.. but hey if they feel like they need to come in when people are in the shower let them be blinded hahaha. they are so stupid. and the third Spanish girl models underwear and i think she tries to get things she wants using how she looks. But uhmmmm i am a girl as well so i her bikini body doesn't do much for me. haha She is 21 and needs to grow up. that is what has been bugging me over all, these girls are all in their 20's and should know how to do things and they don't they are sloppy and demanding and very rude. I can't wait to leave that housing situation.!

What to do...?

getting rough here... not because I am alone, cause I am handling things with the agency just fine. But I really feel like coming home. I am not working and I don't see how i can during Fashion week becasue I dont quite meet height requiremens...abd Fashion week is the main thing all the castings are for. Also i am only getting about one casting a day. I went home early friday because i am sick, sometimes i cant get my hands to stop shaking... I am like an old person.

i have been eating very sticktly, lots and lots of veggies and i look like i put on 30 pounds... so thats not cool.

It is a bummer to have this trip work out this way, a lot of money spent, and nothing made. the agency says i have potential but they say that to everyone and there a re girls here that haent gotten work but have been in Milan for 5-6 weeks. I don't under stand why you would waste your time and money being here for so long.

I need to figure out what i am going to do. I will stay for Fashion week castings for sure, just to see maybe a client wants short people... we will see. but after i think i really need to figure out getting home, especially if i dont get any work during this time this season.



Deniece and I went walking around China town and saw a carnival... I really really really wanted to eat the food... they have better stuff than we do, but i didn't. i need to be strict.

We also saw a biker gang today... real scary considering they were on harley peddle bikes lol. They had coats and the whole everything. haha its one of the top photos of this post. :P

i forgot to tell you about this csting man..! and the strange leftovers in the closet

I tend to be sent to hair and make up castings i think becasue my body is not right for anything else. But anyways my composite cards are from when my hair was muh longer, when i went to a Lorelle casting my hair was up becasue it was a spur of the moment casting. There is this man with bleached white hair and super cool eyes that i figured had contacts for the color, he asks for my card and i stared to tell him that my hair is shorter but before i could get that out he says, "oh, you just got your hair cut abouth thre inches!"
He had never met me before so i was thrown off to have him already know with out me saying anything and not being able to even see my hair.



So... the closet, my roomate told me that she had seen weird things in there but hadn't gottne the chance to go though it. Well we just did haha. I don't know if we were supposed to but oh well. We found gross clothing and brain scans...... and a black locked box and we are going to open it!!!!!!!!!!!!!! some how....


It was snowing today... snowing a lot. i have a feeling there will be some stuck to the ground tomorrow. sad day. It is terrible to walk in which we have to do, we are pretty much on call so it is better to stay in the city till the agency closes.


The black box has been opened!!!!!!


there was a bar of soap in it..

Internet

My computer really does not like Wind internet service here. I dont think this computer does either.... it is so frustrating trying to get on and having it not work every time and then it will once and then not again for the next 20 centuries. UGH.

Computers are just ridiculous sometimes.

The Spanish model's sister, the smoker, got angry when we told her to smoke in her room if she feels she needs to be inside when smoking, so now she doesn't speak to us when we say "goodmorning"or anything. She also leaves the door open so it is still just as bad.

I am going to only drink tea for the next few days I have been eating really well but it looks like i am fatter when I should be losing weight so that sucks.

I dont mind trying to communicate with people that don't speak the same English, but it is getting a little bit old when you need help and they look at you like you are cazy for asking them. For the most part it is ok....just not when you need computer assistance.

I got some photos from the test shoot.. I am in debt now 500 dollars for 26 pictures only 2 I can really use maybe. The agency tells me I need to do better poses but the photographer old me how to stand and wouldn't let me move so that is a bit annoying.

I am also only getting about 1 casting a day so I gowith my roomate to her's because if they will not give them to me I will go myself everyone else is getting 7 a day, and my booker doesn't really give me my castings... only sometimes. Most of the time it is the other bookers that are giving me my castings... why? I don't know.

Please excuse misspelled words or weird grammar I am on the Dutch computer.

last two days-slow moving

Yesterday I only had one casting and today I only had a couple but I did move to a new place with Deniece. I like her but the Spanish girls are not good... mean and speak no English, we had to ask the agency to ask the girls if they will smoke outside or in their room with the door shut and they got angry. I don't think we should have to smell like butt when we are working, if they want to then let them some where else.
I am using a computer that is set to Dutch so spell check says every word is wrong besides had, are, and I, haha. so excuse anything that is messed up.

I am really tired all the time and I always want to eat which is bad because I need to be losing weight. I am not gaining because I walk so much but I am not getting thinner which I have to do. Bleh. :/

Metro-Butt-Gropers!

The last two days the Internet has been very expensive and acts stupid so it is hard for me to get on, but I am moving to model housing this week and I will have free Internet then!!! YAY!

Anyways, yesterday on the sub-way/metro a man was very much in my space and all over my bum! With more than his hands... that frustrates me about the metro, and then again today 2 men were all over Amber and I, in the same way as the man from yesterday... except the guy today was trying to get in my pockets, and I assume he was coppin' a feel just before trying to take my...... grocery list. Ooooo, what a score, huh? On the metro here there is no limit to how many people can get on. And once we're all packed in like sardines there is no getting away from the "Metro-Butt-Gropers". So on Sundays it is very busy because I was told that Sundays are supposed to be a no driving day, for pollution. But people still do just not as many.

I met a girl who speaks very good English! She is from Holland. Seven years older than me but we went to the markets and shopped together this weekend. It was nice having another model understand what I was saying when I was speaking normally.

Hot guy update: Alfredo, one of the bookers and also a son of the agency's President, whose wife is very good friends with the main guy of the salon where the hot guy works, is going to try to get a hold of him for me! lol... How embarassing. lol.
Who knows how that will go, I imagine that he will be invited to the clubs with ICE and what guy that likes women would pass up partying with a bunch of models at V.I.P status for free???

I need to do some more picture taking... I need to make it a habbit!

One of the driver guys that goes out with the agency freaks me out a bit, I am not sure why but he just seems off to me... and he was apparently a "male model". Yeah, uhm no way could that have been possible!

today

Today I was free and had no casting but our Internet was shut down so that was our mission for today and to fix Amber's computer... neither of these we're completely done because no one understands what we are trying to do. lol. Then I fell asleep at 2:00 and I plan to go back to bed soon. I have 4 castings to go to tomorrow.... and then out with the agency! :).

I wish the hot hair dryer guy was going with us.

hair cut and test shoot

Yesterday I had a test shoot with a woman photographer which was a first for me. It went OK i think just 6 hours long and lots a waiting around... I am curious to see how the pictures turned out. We did four different looks so I will have variety which I need.

Today I got a hair cut, I really didn't want to cut my hair off but t happened and it is now shoulder length, it looks good I just wish it was longer, but oh well, what do you do.
Oh and I have not seen any good looking guys that fit my taste except for about 45 minutes ago the guy that dried my hair was not so bad.... :) lol but spoke no English.

All I have had to eat today is bread, bread, bread... so I am hungry for food but we are out of everything but kale... ewwww.
I will post pictures soon.

our fist real weekend

We slept our weekend away, I slept for 15 hours in just one night! Never done that before, I feel like a teenage boy.
On Saturday night after waking up at 2 in the after noon we went out with the agency to a couple clubs. Never in my life would I have thought that I'd be V.I.P. in Italian clubs. We went to the Fiat bar/club/lounge first, we had our own section and everything. After a couple of hours of watching crazy people dance we all headed to Club Hollywood, we also were V.I.P. there. It is so weird, there was even a blonde blow up doll being thrown around. It was fun going out but I think I would enjoy it more if i was with a friend or knew some of the other girls better, Amber and I sat there for the most part and watched the people.
I don't know how the agency does that three nights a week, one would be enough for me. And they feed the models pizza! Aren't we supposed to be all scary skinny and such?
Since being here I have eaten way, way, way too much... I need to cut down. Thank God we have to walk everywhere that helps with my weight.

Oh and all of last nights adventures were free! :P

Run down for the last couple days

FYI: We now have Internet! It fails often and doesn't want to connect most of the time.


So, the last few days I've been to 8 or 9 castings. Two days ago Amber and i were chased down by a couple of guys saying they wanted me for a shoot for "Tar" magazine but you always tell people no in situations like that. But we told them my agency.... Next day, the agency says that those guys are legit. So I went to a casting yesterday for them... I really hope I get that job... It would be very cool.

It is very cold here so today i found a really good coat at "Love Therapy" really cute store by the Babila metro stop.

Some castings are an extreme waste of time... Standing outside for a few hours just to have someone look at you for 2 minutes is not worth it, I think in time I will be allowed to leave when i end up at castings like that.


Today at Duomo Station, where the big cathedral is some guy forced popcorn seeds into my hand and I was then attacked by pigeons!!!! It was pretty cool but a bit scary.... I didn't want to get pooped on!!! ( I will try to put some photos up soon) The men asked for 1 euro ... Yeah right were we gonna give them one! For 5 seeds... please.
Tomorrow I have the day off I think. WOOOOO sleep!

scammer and other things

So the scam... $700 gone 'cause Western union doesn't want to do their job. The apartment guy took it or as he said we did or some else received the money.

Anyways... its very hard to be over here. I don't know how well I can handle it for much longer. lots of walking though. Which is fine. We finally got a place to live but we have nothing. One of my bags went missing and we are hopefully getting it tomorrow. I need it. I had to get my hair done today because we had no shampoo and I had to take some digitals for use on castings and such which I have three of and another shoot tomorrow. We are both pretty tired.

Cinnabon Temptations!!!

I love Cinnabon and right now I'm in the Salt lake airport...they have two Cinnabon Vendors. I've been really strict about the foods I eat to get ready for this trip, leaving me with out the yummy treat. Dare I sabotage my good eating habits??? It's truly killing me, I am stuck here for a few hours, then off to New York.

Crap I have a serious dilemma on my hands!


OH! By the way...we were scammed for $700. Next post will tell all about it.

Leaving Tomorrow

In Idaho today, one more night and I'm off. I'm getting pretty nervous now. We're packed up for the most part...I have a feeling that we may be forgetting something, but we certainly wont know till we're there and can't do anything about it. I'm pretty sure I packed more clothes than I need but hey, you never know . Options, options, options! Amber and I both need more socks. ha ha.

There's a chance we may be renting out the apartment for six months.... meaning summer travels for family and friends???

The cats want to come... they keep getting into our suit cases getting everything all hairy!

:)

Pre-Trip

I start my journey to Italy Wednesday night of this week, that's pretty scary, being in Europe for two months!I'll be working hopefully. Maybe that will help time go by a bit quicker. Amber (Step Mom) and I will be staying in a hotel for the first week then get our own apartment, thank God.
The thought of not having a cell phone gives me anxiety, I'll be going through some heavy with drawls during these next couple months. It's just too spendy to use on like I do over seas. Bummer. I'm sure Amber will miss the easy connection to people a cell phone gives you as well...whether she says it or not. Ha ha.
I think the trip will be good for me even though it is extremely stressful already and I haven't even left Spokane, but it will be OK. I'm excited for the trip home. I think we are going to Paris, Switzerland, then to London, and back home to Spokane. It'll be nice actually to get travel with out the working part, so I'm really looking forward to that.

Wish me luck. :)